June 20th, 2017

Been too long since I have posted. But I happily say I have been taking a season of rest. Yet I sadly say, I write this with real tears and a heavy heart as I read this post again today from Lysa TerKeurst at Proverbs 31. The enemy came to kill, steal and destroy and sadly we let him. One bad choice can truly initiate the domino effect and sin doesn't just effect us, it spills into the lives of those around us. 
So today I lift my voice in prayer to you Lord, prayer for Lysa...bring her comfort and heal her heart Lord. I know you are bigger than all of this Lord, and though the plans you have for her may have taken a new course that we trust and believe they are good, just like You. 
Let this be a reflection for all of us to guardrail our marriages. I have been in the shadows where choices have been made and lines have been crossed. Thats what gives the enemy power and allows sin to give us false assurance. It is not a pleasant place to be, in fact it is very dangerous. The devil will take you places you never intended to go;keep you there with his lies much longer than you ever intended to stay;and will make you pay prices much higher than you ever imagined. Thats what sin does. It removes you from an obedient walk with the Lord and allows the enemy to have his way with your mind,soul and body. Too often we blame God, and cry out "why have you forsaken me?", yet it was us who walked away and silenced His voice. 
So I want to pray today for each of you, including myself: 
I praise you Lord for who You are, Your goodness, mercy and grace are ever abundant in my life. Thank you Lord for loving a sinner like me. Thank you for Your reassurance that I am loved, cherished and chosen by You, even on my worst of days. I pray daily that I continue to honor You in all that I do. 
I pray for my marriage and all marriages that You be the center Lord and no room or door be left open to allow the enemy in. 
Teach us to love like You. Teach us patience and forgiveness. 
Teach me to be more present with my husband and children vs my phone or TV. Teach me to pursue what is Godlike and to dislike all that is of the sinful nature of the world we live in. 
Teach us to always guard our hearts; You first, then my husband, then my children, for this is the biblical foundation You set. 
Help me seek you daily not only for myself but for my husband and children. Teach me to not let the busyness of the world distract me, where I forget to love those around me and and spend quality time with them. 
Teach me that trials are Your ways of molding me and weeding my garden for things that don't belong. I pray You continue to birth new things in me, and no different than real labor...it is painful and messy but remind me in gentle whispers it is miracles and masterpieces You are creating. 
Teach my heart to desire more fellowship with my brothers and sisters; after-all thats why You established the church. 
I pray that I respect and honor my husband at all times, even when I may not feel like it because it's how You love Lord. If I want to receive love, I must be willing to give love. 
Help me remember my "littles" are only little for such a short time. In the blink of an eye, they are gone and off to pursue their dreams and passion. 
Remind me not to sweat the small things; too often I find myself asking "was that really worth fighting over?" Help me seek You daily and let Your spirit overtake me. I want to be transparent and vulnerable at all times with You Lord. 
Teach me to love my husband, children and family with small gestures: a touch of the hand, a simple message, a kiss goodnight or an extra "I love you!" 
You created me to do great things and by Your saving knowledge my heart, soul and mind fully understand that only great things are possible with You....as my friend, mentor and Father. May I pick up my cross daily....I love you Lord and thank you for who You are! 
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